Saturday 20 August 2016

Round 20 Day 1

Our appointment at the hospital was for 10.30am and we were only 5 minutes late. Really there is no excuse for not making it to such a late start time, but we did have a lot of other little things to do this morning before setting off.

It's really starting to feel like spring. It was a warm but overcast day, almost humid feeling.
Magnolias are in bloom all over Hobart right now. It looks fabulous. This is one I've enjoyed for many years walking to town. I took this photo in a hurry (we were running late, remember) but I'm really happy with it.

I had the opportunity to mark some progress today. There was a community nurse in the ward today, training in treating cancer patients, so I was asked if I would mind if she inserted into my port today. And I agreed. 
Doesn't sound like a big deal does it?
But even though this lady is a qualified nurse, and just broadening her experience, I would never have agreed to this in the past. I remember for previous treatments, where I've had to fill in consent forms, I've always specified that trainees or visitors can observe but not participate. I'm just too nervous. 

But today I felt ready to give it a try, and it was fine. OK, after it was all done I had a tiny moment of panic, but it all went totally fine and I somehow saved the 'wobble' for a completely illogical moment.
Today I wore one of my Pixies t shirts. I bought this at a gig in Melbourne in 2010. There were 2 designs available. This one, which looks cool and came in green, and another black and white one, which had tour dates on it. And I chose this one. And I kick myself regularly for it. I even tried to find the tour t shirt online afterwards, to no avail. I'd had quite a few drinks before the show, and clearly my judgement was impaired. It was a really great gig though, and the t shirt always reminds of a great day.
Here's a picture I took during the show.

This should be my last round of chemo before we go on holiday. Life has felt a little surreal and rather busy recently. Ever since Dave's guest blog actually. And although it's all good, I think my head is in a strange space at the moment.
I should let myself get excited for our holiday, but I'm scared I'll jinx it, so instead I feel nervous. I need to chill out! Well, I guess I'll do that on holiday.

I'm not sure if I'll do any blogging while I'm away. The plan is that I won't be having any treatment. It'll be really nice to let my side effects clear away and I hope I can build up some fitness. But apart from that, I'm trying not to have too many expectations.

I have scans and treatments booked up for when I get back. If you don't hear from me in the meantime, I'll let you all know how that goes.

Thank you everyone. The support I've felt from you all over the last year or so has been more help than I can say.


  1. Love to hear from you Fliss. It's always interesting to see life through your eyes, to observe these treatments days and admire your resilience to the task in hand. I think you're awesome x

    1. Anna, I can never thank you enough for all your kind and supportive words xxx